Whatever the mess you are, you're mine.

Part II: GeoSites, because I swear that's how you say it

When I was in third grade, several fateful things happened. The most solemn of these was that the shooting at Columbine High School happened. Between this new fear about the conditions teenagers faced in public school, my parents perception of my early-adolescent symptoms of depression, and other concerns about my education itself, my parents decided to home-school me. This had pros and cons, and to this day, I will argue with my fellow proponents of public school that home-schooling isn't all bad. When it is done by a caring, intelligent parent or individual, it can be a very rewarding experience that allows an individual child to pursue his or her own interests and strengths, academically and otherwise. I got to volunteer in the community and to participate in programs to get me around kids my age and other things like that, so I wasn't all alone. I wouldn't say that I wasn't lonely quite a bit of the time, though, and envious of my peers who got to see their friends every day. Like I said, there were pros and cons.

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This is probably the fourth or fifth time I've tried to use Dreamwidth as a personal and fannish outlet. However, none of these efforts has ever been wildly successful. I think the main reasons for this have been bad timing, lack of real thought about anything in particular to say, and the fact that I would most feel the need to come back to a place like this when I was especially hurt and depressed by another fannish outlet. None of those factors really led to a functioning journal, and now when I go to communities to be added as a friend the only thing I have to show are my feeble attempts at self-deprecating, mopey blogging and dozens and dozens of Dear Author letters.

In an attempt to remedy several issues at once, I have decided to outline and write a fandom autobiography. In doing this, I hope to reflect on the good, bad, and silly of my fannish past and its tremendous impact on my life and personal development. It will give me a core reason to come on and make posts regularly for a while, and it will also give any new friends a mix of nostalgia and information. It's a journal, so if you friend me you're hopefully looking for personal connection and something to read.

Here are the parts I hope to divide this autobiography into, subject to change as I see the need:

I. The Wonder Years (when I achieved setience-2000/2001)
II. GeoSites, because I swear that's how you say it (2002-2004?)
III. A Contributing Member of Something (2006-2009)
IV. The Smouldering of a Dying World (2010-2011)
V. Everybody is Doing It (2011-2014)
VI. Nobody is Doing Anything and Lots of Headcanon (2015)
VII. The Dark Year (2016)
VII. This is a Real Journal Now

Stay tuned for Part I.